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I've made it, I've made it to the end.
I don't care anymore, goodbye my "friend".

I can's say I'm sad to see you leave.
I now feel like I can breath.

I'm sorry that I had met you.
With all the pain you put my through.

My experience makes me stronger,
but is it worth the hurt I harbor?

Well, you and your lies broke my heart.
But I've picked up the pieces, no longer falling apart.

I am so very glad you're going away.
I'm happy that I won't have to see you another day.

I feel a crushing weight lifted.
My perspective has finally shifted.

I hope you find the love you crave.
It only comes from the one who saves.

I cannot rescue you from your choice.
I'm done wasting my voice.

I will still pray.
I can love from far away.

So goodbye, I bid you farewell, I am free.
I have never been so happy for someone to leave.

I wish you the best. truly, I hope you find happiness.
I have it in my prayer and friends, I hope you find this.

Life is such a gift.
Please cherish it.

we have traveled such a troubled and lengthy road.
But we've come to a fork in this path, and I must let you go.

We are going separate ways, for good this time.
So I say farewell to the boy I once loved.
The boy I laughed with.
The boy I goofed off with.
The boy who shared a love of Doctor Who.
The boy who loved China.
The boy who shared his music.
The boy who taught me to swing-dance.
The boy who loved piano.
The boy who sand about setting the world on fire.
The boy who was my best friend.
The boy who was a coward.
The boy who was angry.
The boy who became cold.
The boy who became bitter.
The boy who I lost.
The boy who I cried for.
The boy who left.

May God walk with you wherever you go,
Farewell my friend.

Farewell Jon.
Farewell Jon
Wow, I can't really believe I wrote this. I kept making poems about letting him go. I never actually did...but I feel like this time is different. There's a peace there that wasn't before.
So, I guess this is my final goodbye. I'm glad it's over. My anger is just gone. I just feel sad that it ended the way it did, but I just have no desire to hold on to him. It's done. After this last final drama, I just feel like it's over.
Thank God.
Oh look I still draw and stuff...That's a thing lol...I don't have a name for her yet, or a story, but I like her...
I found your letters today,

Ones I didn't know I saved.

I thought I threw them all away.

I shouldn't have read them, I caved.

Your words were so kind.

How did you change so fast?

A gentle boy left behind.

I searched for clues in the past.

All I found, was a boy that I miss.

No hints of the girl who ignores facts.

Why don't you understand, I remember you like this?

When did you become so cold?

I wish I could see the old you.

Is it because you believed the lie, and your soul was sold?

The friend I knew who was kind and true.

You are drowning in hate.

I smiled at your letters today.

The devil lured you in and you took the bait.

Our friendship was sweet before you went astray.

Hook line and sinker, you bought it.

I have to let go, poison is tainting my memories.

Anger is your drug and you keep needing just one more hit.

I don't want to think of us as enemies.

I read your letters today and grieved for the boy who died.
So this is kind of two poems put together, reading every other line on either the first or second line gives you a slightly different perspective. Sooo yeah.
oh look, a drawing....Sorry for the shaky lines and general eh quality, I did this all with a blah.
I need to get some things off my chest, because if they continue to sit in my brain, I will go insane.
I am still angry, I can't stop being angry. I don't like this side of me, mad at him/her, whatever. I want to move on, I could kick myself for hanging on. I don't expect them to change, so I don't understand why I still care at all. I don't understand.

Maybe it's because I trusted them too much, giving more than I should have emotionally. I told them everything, spent so much time with them, building a friendship that I though would last forever, something good, something happy. I let them in, I let them in too much. I didn't believe that they could hurt me. I was naive, child-like in my trust and kindness.
I never expected for the rug to be pulled so quickly out from under my feet. I was betrayed, for the first time. I had never felt hurt like this. I didn't understand, how someone I cared so much for could do that.

Hindsight is 20/20 though, and now I see the warning signs, all the things they said and did. Trying to turn me against people I cared about, trying to change my beliefs, trying to change me into someone I wasn't. I let them get away with things that I shouldn't have, I let him say cruel things, and I believed them at first. Why would he lie to me, we were friends? Friends don't lie, not seriously, right? Not in a damaging way right?

Getting wise was the beginning of the end. I started catching on to lies and twisted truths. Damn did it hurt. They were hiding a whole different life from me, even when they said they were not going to go back to that. That they had seen that it wasn't the right way to live.

I wasn't surprised when I found out. Angry, and hurt, sure, but not surprised. I don't know why I believed then at all. I don't even know how I was so blinded.

Now, I still am hurt, everything we went through, it is all tainted. I knew him for so long, and now I wonder how many lies I believed. How true was anything they said. I put so much time into loving them, I forgave them over and over. A million times. I stood by their side when things got tough, but all of it is poisoned now. I can't even go back and smile at the good times, and there were good times, but they no longer hold meaning.

I feel weighed down by anger, I can't let go. I let you break me. I have wounds that don't seem to fade. I now fear people like you. I now don't trust as much, and there are parts of me that still feel torn, when I think about you, because I want to let you go, forget you, stop wanting to know about your life. I am torn, because I'm taught not be angry, not to hold a grudge, but I still feel angry. I've never stayed angry, anger fades quick with me, but you made such a deep cut, that I still don't know how to let it heal.

I pray that it heals, I pray for you too. I want to move on, but hurt doesn't go away so fast, and wounds take a long time to heal. I don't want to feel this way forever, I want to be able to move on, to see the good things about you. I don't want to hate you. I want to let go, to be set free, to no longer feel weighed down.

Hopefully that freedom will come soon.
Moving on is harder than it sounds.
YES I KNOW...I HAVE SWORN UP AND DOWN THAT I HAVE MOVED ON....well it's harder than it sounds and I am still hurting...ugh...This has been bothering me for about a least I can vent a little bit.
Do any of you want to see some of the haikus I wrote for my creative writing class? If you wanna see them, just let me know. 
  • Listening to: The Beatles
  • Reading: college stuffs
  • Watching: comp screen
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: food
  • Drinking: lemonade


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Well, There's not much to tell. I enjoy music, mostly Twenty One Pilots, I also like bands like Queen, The Beatles, and a bunch of others. I'm a huge fan of classic rock.
I also love reading, if I'm not wasting my time on the internet, I'm probably reading. Mostly fiction, and mostly YA fiction, I don't really like much else.
I write a lot, that's pretty much my dream job. Writing, all the time, probably fiction.
I'm also Catholic and proud to be so. I love my faith.

Anyway...that's pretty much it...Me in a nutshell.



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PaintFeathers Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2016
Thanks for watching us back! 8D
lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Of course!!
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shipain Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
:iconbummiesplz:Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too
lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you!! :)
Neoconvoy Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2016  Student General Artist
Happy birthday!

God bless you!
lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you!!!
God bless you as well. :)
shipain Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
:iconbummiesplz:Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too
FG-Twins Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the watch! :heart:
Neoconvoy Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy birthday!

God bless you!
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Thanks for the fave
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How busy are you? There's a club that needs some attention.
Pugga-Chan Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2014   Traditional Artist
Thanks fro the watch Gabby :iconbrohugplz: 
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*for lol
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lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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Neoconvoy Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2013  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday!

God Bless you!
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Thank you very much. =)
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