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I think it's time to invest in a new pair of headphones when your old ones start shocking you... O.O
Sometimes I wish I could turn off my brain for a bit and stop thinking so much....or at least stop over thinking...
Thank you, thank you so much dear,
Thank you all who have stood by me and made their love so clear.

Thank you for the laughter,
The moments when the real world didn't matter.

Thank you for being so kind,
listening to my troubled mind.

Thank you for being so real and true,
I'm so blessed to have friends like you.

Thank you for helping me grow,
You've helped me out of places where I've been so low.

Thank you for the gifts you put your heart into,
I love them, I really do.

Thank you for letting me handle things my own way,
Thank you for being patient and willing to stay.

Thank you for showing how beautiful a car ride can be,
Singing and screaming at the top of our lungs, a sight only we can see.

Thank you for holding me while I cry,
thank you for explaining when I don't understand why.

Thank you for conversations at 3 AM about life and love.
I wouldn't trade them for anything, I cherish them too much.

Thank you for showing me your art,
Something you created from the heart.

Thank you for putting up with me as I grew,
I was a crazy mess back then, though I tried to be true.

Thank you for taking time to spend it with me.
It means the world, and I am so lucky.

Thank you all. Over the years, you've seen me grow, become the person I am now. I wouldn't be who I am without you guys. My dear friends, Thank you.
Thank you.
I feel like I don't say this enough. I am so lucky to have you guys in my life. I'm so grateful to know so many wonderful people who have helped me through so much. So honestly, thank you.
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Look at me, what do you see?
A slight touch of insanity?

Do you see me as broken and weak?
Or maybe you see me as just a freak?

My mind is my own worst enemy,
Fighting a constant battle with my OCD.

Nervous questions, "Are you sure?"
Intrusive thoughts, "You're so impure!"

A violent voice lives inside my head.
Cursing and telling me "You're better off dead."

It feeds me lies, "Your friends hate you!"
It doesn't matter if I know it's not true.

These thoughts are on a constant replay,
No matter how many times I tell it to shut up and go away.

"You're annoying!", "Quit complaining!", "You're going to Hell."
So many thoughts make me feel ill at ease and unwell.

"You just want pity.", "Attention whore!", "You're being so selfish, listen to me!"
The voice is smug, grinning like a demon who won't leave me be.

My nails have become torn, bloody and chipped.
A result of a nervous tic.

Forever I've lived with this,
but treating me like I'm fragile is not my wish.

Look past the anxiety,
try and see the real me.

Someone who tries to be kind and smart.
Just a girl who wants to share her heart.
My own personal demon, OCD
So, yeah, I've had OCD as long as I can remember. I used to have the well known compulsions, like washing my hands over and over, and checking the locks, and the worry that if I didn't do something, my family would get hurt or die. As I grew older, it started to just become pure O OCD. Mainly just the obsessions side of OCD. I would worry about getting sick, to the point where I would actually make myself sick, I would have insomnia because I had a tiny stomach ache, and I was convinced that I had the stomach flu. I would worry about cancer, and any other deadly disease I heard about. I also got thoughts of killing myself stuck in my head, as intrusive thoughts, meaning no matter how much I didn't want to think about it, I couldn't help thinking about it. Intrusive thoughts are torture, thoughts that I don't want, that just won't go away.  Fun. I found this on pure O OCD when I was looking up OCD stuff, because why not: "What’s the deal with Pure-O?

Myth: Pure-O OCD doesn’t have compulsions

Chances are, if you have this type of OCD, you are doing compulsions; just in your head instead of visible ones.  These kind of compulsions are called “covert compulsions” and can be difficult to catch because of their invisibility to the naked eye.  Some common forms of these in-your-head compulsions are as follows:

  • Reassurance-seeking from self
  • Ruminating on obsession
  • Mental retracing of steps
  • Repetition of special words/phrases in head
  • Mental undoing of actions
  • Mental checking of physical and emotional reactions to different situations in past, present, or future (or completely made-up)
  • “Flooding” brain with unwanted images, thoughts, or scenes to gauge the reaction

Other common compulsions that come with “Pure-O” OCD are avoidance, reassurance, and confession rituals." 
I do so many of those.

I've dealt with OCD so long, and I go through times where my OCD is almost non-existent, and then I go through phases where my OCD is really rough and hard to handle and manage. I'm kind of in the middle right now.

It's rough, but I'm not crazy, OCD is not who I am, it's just a part of how I deal with things...So yeah....So enjoy this very personal poem and stuff...yay...

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Do any of you want to see some of the haikus I wrote for my creative writing class? If you wanna see them, just let me know. 
  • Listening to: The Beatles
  • Reading: college stuffs
  • Watching: comp screen
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: food
  • Drinking: lemonade

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Gabby
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Well, There's not much to tell. I enjoy music, mostly Twenty One Pilots, I also like bands like Queen, The Beatles, and a bunch of others. I'm a huge fan of classic rock.
I also love reading, if I'm not wasting my time on the internet, I'm probably reading. Mostly fiction, and mostly YA fiction, I don't really like much else.
I write a lot, that's pretty much my dream job. Writing, all the time, probably fiction.
I'm also Catholic and proud to be so. I love my faith.

Anyway...that's pretty much it...Me in a nutshell.
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PaintFeathers Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thanks for watching us back! 8D
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lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Of course!!
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Woohoo!
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shipain Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
:iconbummiesplz:Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too
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lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you!! :)
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Neoconvoy Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2016  Student General Artist
Happy birthday!

God bless you!
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lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you!!!
God bless you as well. :)
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shipain Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
:iconbummiesplz:Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too
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FG-Twins Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the watch! :heart:
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Neoconvoy Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy birthday!

God bless you!
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Thanks for the fave
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How busy are you? There's a club that needs some attention.
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Thanks fro the watch Gabby :iconbrohugplz: 
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*for lol
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Happy Birthday!

God Bless you!
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lunarwolf95 Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very much. =)
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